Chris Brown Memoir

I started off as a young artist, recognised initially by my mother for my singing around the house I was convinced to meet with some local producers. The first few years of my career were hugely successful, I met up with several recording companies trying to build my fame. I aimed at being an inspiration to my audience, with my creative and genuine schtick. Looking back on my adventurous life, I feel my racial background had an impact on my life a great deal. As a young chid I grew up in a loving household with a shared love and passion for music. My music is aimed at teenagers, as it speaks to them and has an impact on their lives in certain ways. My upward spiral to success was only a dream. However, a domestic dispute in early 2009 led to a turning point not only in my career but in my life as well. After pleading guilty to domestic violence, I was sentenced to 131 days in jail. Life in jail was the worst experience in my life, I felt as if I had let my fans down. I always aspired to be a role model to my fans, especially since what I do in my life affects the public and comes into question of public scrutiny, so my behaviour which I am not proud of left a bad taste in many people’s mouths. My aim was to inspire my audience to be creative and promote originality, as well as to provide them with self confidence, perhaps since I grew up of a different racial background to many of those around me,  that might have had an impact on my self esteem and older life, which may have also instigated the domestic violence case. Jail life was a huge life lesson, I learned to be more appreciative of things that I’m blessed with, I’ve taken time to reflect the importance of learning from my mistakes. Ever since being in jail, I had stopped my music writing, it is a depressing place, a true eye opener in fact. Waking up every morning by a guard, not having any family by your side is depressing, being in the cell most of the day gave me plenty of time to reflect on my actions and understand my true self. In the wake of this scandal, I thank my fans, music is a passion of mine, I try to write my music to evoke as much emotion and feeling as I can, to unify the audience and the lyrics. 

In conclusion, I feel the worst experience of my life instigated a new me, a more appreciative me in terms of what I am blessed with. In this day and age, especially with regards to my fan base who are constantly surrounded by social media and the internet, news travels very fast, so I feel I have let my fans down and myself down with childish behaviour. Just to reiterate, my experience in jail drove a change in me, a change to create meaningful music whereby my fans enjoy. My family has always been very supportive of me, and I feel that I let them down a great way, however I feel my past experiences has promoted a new outlook on life and has promoted me to write more meaningful music to an audience who is easy to influence, I want my music to speak volumes.